I am feeling so damn bitter.. I don't want to do this anymore, none of it is making me happy at the moment. I feel hated, I feel angry, I feel so frustrated!!! I have so many damn un pleasant feelings right now and no one in the world to make me feel any better about a one of them. All I get is more negative pushed my way.. I want to be better I want to be happy. I want to be me again. I am a good person a happy person.. I hate that I feel like I can't be myself around the person who is supposed to make me feel the most safe. He is mean and hateful he is angry and I hate how damn shitty he can be. he saids mean things, and I feel like it is all meant to hurt. He is mean mean mean... I am getting so damn resentful I am starting to feel just as hateful inside as he is to me. I get it I get it all..